I finally decided that John Lennon must be trying to tell me something, to quote the late singer.... "And so this is Christmas... and what have you done.... another year over..... and a new one's just begun." Well, this is Christmas, and WHAT have I done. I started culinary school at Washburn Institute of Technology this year. I got my first official job, I cut off my 3 foot long hair.......... but what does all of this mean? What made this year different for me than any other year? As this song continues to haunt me I wonder what I did that was so special, what did I do, not only for myself... but for others. Seeing people this Christmas season that were needy-er than I made me feel very selfish and snobby. The clock is slowly ticking down to midnight, when my family will all pile in the car and head off to Midnight Mass. I wonder as I will set in a dark and quiet church if there is still some time for me to finish this year with the Joy of Christ and to start off next year with a more giving and open heart. It is so unfortunate that I have always been told that Christmas isn't about gifts, or food, it's about Family and Jesus' birthday. But somehow, it has taken me 16 years to see and experience it. As Christ becomes ready to enter our world as a pure-sinless baby, I am hoping He will take my broken, blemished heart and make it new and clean, if only for His pleasure. Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Good-night!
Whistle while you work, Emma
